Lately I've been thinking... a lot. Too much probably. You see while pulling weeds 7 hours a day, you have a lot of time to think, and pray.
But God has been speaking to me the following, “He is faithful, even when we are faithless”. But sitting here, in this chair, ending my night. I've been realizing that we so often see the faithfulness of God, but the next day, heck! even the next minute we doubt the faithfulness of God. I have had my outreach team pray for a blind woman, and she was healed, right outside of my tent. I have seen a deaf man get healed and able hear right in front of me. I have prayed for a sick woman, and her husband was so excited that she was healed he offered to pay me, probably most if not all of the money he had.
“But I said to you that you have seen me and yet do not believe.” John 6:36. How often to we see Jesus, see God the Father, see the Holy Spirit, so clearly, so strongly, so evident and yet we doubt His faithfulness afterward.
“He who began a good work is faithful to complete it” Philippians 1:6. How can we doubt Him, when He is always faithful, and He's always been faithful.
I don't want to doubt God's faithfulness. I know, that I know, that I know, I am in the center of His will, and I know that's the best place to be, but often times it's also the hardest place to be. It seems like the tests, and trials of this season are almost never ending, even as a new chapter, a new season begins, but the more God tests my heart I'm starting to realize, the more I fall in love with Him. So, “I'll be tested and tried, with no regrets inside of me, just to find I'm at Your feet”.
God, I believe, but help my unbelief.
Take it all God. I am wholly Yours.
